Bits and Bobs

Blogger and I need to get on friendly terms and I'm not sure how to swing that.

Firstly, I really don't like how the pictures get loaded into my text area. Why can't the picture just go where I left my cursor? And why do some pictures have a "click on me to see me bigger" option and others don't when I've published my blog? Is that because I had the audacity to move them around? I am also at a loss as to why my very clear paragraphs and spaces get taken out. I leave a line between each paragraph. They don't always show up. What gives?

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Also, what am I going to do by way of job? As of August 1st I no longer have an income and, while I am financially okay and don't need to worry for awhile about work, I would actually like to have some idea what I would like to do.

Not sure about teaching. Maybe just because I am not happy with it at the moment but it's also the idea of starting over at another school. I have my niche at the OSB (uncomfortable as it may sometimes be) and I know how everything works. Rediscovery at another school is huge. And the very thought makes me tired.

If this is a mid-life crisis I am screwed. Mostly because I would like to get older than 62 but also because ... well, this sucks. Up until now all of my choices and paths have kind of fallen into my lap. I have never actually had to decide to do something. I have never had to apply for a job. They just got handed to me. Now I have the freedom to explore what I would like to do and go after it and I really have no idea where to start looking.

The vast amount of possibilities (or not) is confusing and it's throwing me off my focus.

So yeah, I am not really scared as I don't need a job in order to have an income at the moment but I am a bit worried about my lack of ambition or inspiration.

What do I want to do?